Is it insanity that I talk to myself?

Sometimes I do, and I can get a little weird. Like one time I was talking a little bit like Cheech and Chong would, adding "man" to everything.

I was in the hospital ER for an infection that was worsening and the young nurse who must have been told by the people spying on me about that (just to be clear, I don't think EVERYONE is spying on me, just people inside big tech companies, maybe some family members, and/or some kind of MK Ultra like evil psychological experiments program, who then share that with certain people I cross paths with, to manipulate them, maybe turn them against me) did the same thing - edit: specifically the Cheech and Chong, man at the end of her sentence - while at one of her machines. I think she was mocking me.

The spying is what bothers me much more than the mockery. Why are people mocking me for things I did while alone? Seems like a concern a sane person would have. Pretty reasonable.

I am an autistic misfit, so used to being mocked. The constant spying AND the mockery together is deeply troubling and enraging, though. I think I'm right about that.

Insane? I don't think so.