The Note?
The note Barbara writes to her lover has me perplexed. I believe I understand her character and her choices. When I watched the movie I didn't get a look at the note she wrote and I'm wondering if it was legible.
Basically, I'm wondering if it contradicts my understanding of her:
I honestly don't believe she loves her colleague. While he is an interesting man who shows her understanding, her reactions are those of appreciation, not love. She is grateful for the small tenderness, but she does not melt for him.
I think she saved Stella rather than herself for the same reason she strokes the hair of the sleeping child and checks on the suicide case. She is a doctor and a woman who tries to do no harm. Stella is a child whose suffering has been too great for her to survive in East Germany. She is fresh faced, delicate, and pregnant. Barbara sacrifices herself, does herself extraordinary harm, to save the girl. I think Barbara loves her boyfriend with all her being but cannot allow herself happiness in place of the girl's safety.
The ending is a macabre fulfillment of a previous conversation; she is in the rural lands to help the peasants who made her education possible. I think her
note tries to explain this.
Thoughts, anyone?