Lying to parents at Compassionate Friends

It really hurts me to know that Aaron Eckart found it not only necessary, but seemingly proud that he went to a meeting and played in character that his child died and gave details that the parents believed. He told that they comforted him. This is sick and wrong. This is a club of sorts that no one wants to belong to. I sure didn't. You go because you're so desperate to make sense of something that will never make sense. You are devastated beyond measure and you are barely able to breathe and when you do you feel shame that you are breathing and your child is not.

If he wanted to see what it was like, by all means go, but be upfront about it. You can imagine, but unless you've been there you will never know. He needs to understand that and drop to his knees in thanks for that. I would be terrified of doing what he did because someday he could find out.

It's been 21 years for me and I still catch myself waking up happy and then it hits me...he's not here. Last week I picked up a box of Captain Crunch and then when I dropped it in the cart I remembered.

People we meet that are my age talk about what a great life we have. We travel for 6 or 7 months every year and do see so much of the world. They don't know that we do this because home hurts, yet we can't abandon it because this is where he lived and I sleep in his bed and hug his pillow. I would give up everything to have him still with me or to know that one day I would have grandchildren. When your only child dies, so do you. You just have to stay here. You have no future. You just wait until it's your turn.

If Aaron just asked they would have told him.