I am torn on this one for sure (Warning possible triggers)

Adding this addendum up top. Sorry I got into my personal stories, just happened. My fingers just put in the words I had never told before. Also, apologize I could not paragraph.
It is always interesting how these allegations come out just as someone is politically breaking down the other side and getting popular. Makes me very suspicious. YET, I had some things happen to me LONG ago I never reported or told my parents or teachers about. One was peers 3 or 4 boys, maybe even 5. Yes, I am not sure exactly. They grabbed me fast and hard. I was walking with a friend on wooded bike trails. She ran away. (Bitch) Didn't get help. Just ran. Wow, shaking my head about this. I can't believe I am writing this. I never told a soul. My 'friend' and I never talked about it. Well, I struggled as I could but was quickly overpowered and thrown to the ground. I was crying fighting and screaming. A hand went over my mouth that I could taste the stink of his unwashed hands. They started talking about literally now what as I lay there sobbing. They were all holding me down roughly and tight, then my pants and panties pulled down to my knees, threating things while laughing (I recognized 3 for sure) then flipping me over putting ashes on me joking about I'm an asstray. Finally letting me go as I stumbled to get my pants up while I ran like the wind blocks and blocks to home trying to fasten my jeans as I ran. That was 6th grade. Now a man might think oh well, you did not get penetrated or even touched in "those" spots. Well guess what... It was quite effing traumatic. Maybe this is some sort of cathartic thing here. hmmm
Other was a HS guidance counselor. Not rape either but he especially should have been reported so I get the holding it in too. I did not quite know the words for it back then, but he was definitely grooming me for more. Getting me ready. He was a friend of the family. He would have me 'hang' in his basement at his house while my Mom visited with his wife (a teacher). His son was in my class. I would be talking about my 16-year-old issues with him. (They were many). He eventually would have me sit in his lap sometimes when I cried. He also started rubbing my back often over my shirt. Eventually told me it was nicer if I laid down and could do it easier. I felt a tad uncomfortable but did it. I wanted to talk. My father was absent. Perhaps he was that role to me a bit. He was way older. Guessing late 40's-50ish. I liked talking to him. He helped. I will admit, the back rubs were nice and did relax me. I didn't really think about much more until... While rubbing over my shirt he started to pull my shirt up over my back. Go under my bra strap. Maybe even graze a bit too much to the side up there, ya know. Then one time he tried to unhook my bra. He said he could rub better, easier. I said no, jumped down and left. It was so uncomfortable after the bra thing. I did not go back. I did talk to him on the phone a bit though but ended it shortly after. I realized later what was happening... Later in life I figured out (99.99% sure). He had me lie on a basement old super thick higher window ledge. There was a long cushion on it. He was rubbing himself or against the wall or both as he touched me with the other hand. I could not see with the set up but, Yeah, those subtle movements and breathing I realized as I got older. Well, Eventually, he moved out of state. All the sudden I get a call from him when I am 25 or so. He says he needs my help. Guess what, he is being accused of child molestation! He says to me like asking... "I never did anything wrong with you right, I need you to help" Wants me to write a testimonial or whatever. I so regret I did not report him back in the day. Even just told my Mom. Go figure I feel so bad for other girls he did things to. As now I am sure he did. Maybe if I had said something. I was young. I was having problems. I was afraid... yes, they might blame me and just general fear. I believe if I was even more gullible (and I was enough already) and he was not such good friends with my Mom, he would have been quicker and very more inappropriate if not worse. Never told anyone that either. smh. Sorry, I did get carried away here. Perhaps I needed to share and since anonymous wtf. my fingers started typing and took a mind of their own to share. Whew. Well, I guess you see why I am torn on this issue.
I hate that they waited so long and then come all at once. But, see above. Not easy! I regret I did not do anything about the counselor big time. It was a different time too. No 'me too' to back women up. It certainly would have me against him, wouldn't it? When he contacted me at 25ish I should have wrote but not what he expected. I just couldn't. He had helped me so much. Literally, (ok, he save my life, but such another story) OMG y'all better send me a bill for this.